Living in the Moment Today!

Today...my day started out by getting up early and getting ready like I normally do getting ready to go to school where I work as a Kindergarten Assistant Teacher. I got in the car drove to work like I do most days when I don't ride with my Mom. I arrived walked into the school to my classroom to get ready for the children to get there...as 7:20 rolled around the children started to arrive and greeted me glad to see me. I love working with Kindergarteners I always say it's an adventure and it is but I enjoy seeing there smiling faces in the morning. There sweet little personalities, quirks, even misbahving...sometimes they can drive me crazy but I do love my class of 16 little ones. Today in a Kindergarten class in Conneticut far away from mine a man came in with a gun shot 7 adults and 20 children. 20 CHILDREN! I typed that right and it breaks my heart to type it. This tragedy hits a little to close to home being that I work in a school and with Kindergarteners. As I found out about the events that occured at Sandy Hook Elementary today this afternoon I couldn't help but think about my Kindergartners. I have 16 in my class with me and the teacher whom I teach with.... today after hearing of the events and how many of those precious little ones were now no longer alive along with the adults lost...that would be all of my class and us the two teachers plus some. I know how much I enjoy being with those sweet little people in my class and I can't imagine them being gone in just a second, but in a classroom far from mine in a place that seems so picturesq a school where children are supposed to be happy and safe things beacame far different from that. It breaks my heart truely breaks my heart to think about the things that would have been for these children that now will never come to pass along with the heart break that there families are experiencing. To think about all the things children have ahead of them things like brithday's, Christmas's, Holiday's, family vacations, and other things like graduations, their drivers licenses, college, marriage, children of there own...and all the other great things they would do in there lives. These Children will not and that is what sadden's me the most. I still feel safe in my school crazy people do crazy things and I understand that it is the world we live in. I also know how the plan works in our school in case this were to happen. The title of this blog in particular is important today because of this event...WE MUST LIVE IN THE MOMENT and show those we who are important to us that we love them and care for them...whether that be friends or family. The other thing that this blog title brings up is living each day to the fullest...God does have a plan for each one of us I fully believe that...we do not know what tomorrow may hold so we should live everyday like it is a gift. Until next time...

Patriot Day....

Tomorrow is Patriot Day 9/11 a Day that will never be forgotten...so memorable to my generation comparable to my grandparents generation of Pearl Harbor. Tomorrow will be a day of rememberance but also a intresting one for me. You see I recently started a new job two weeks ago as a Kindergarten Assistant at a local Elementary School. I love my job and working with these children. We are celebrating tomorrow at school but as my day winded down today I thought about the children in my class one of them born tomorrow. I know being the inquisative children that they are...they are going to ask why we celebrate Patriot Day just like last week they ask why we celebrate labor day. It made me laugh at that but back to my post. You all of my class was born 5 years after 9/11. How do I explain to a child why this day is so important when they weren't even born. I remember those images of the planes crashing and the buildings falling thinking this can't be real who would do such a thing as this. Last year was the 10th anniversary of the World Trade Center Attacks. I was 10 years ago a high school freshman playing volleyball, and hanging with my friends enjoying life. I guess my children in my class will have to learn about it through history books just like I did with my grandparents about Pearl Harbor. They will learn and understand that it will ever be a major part of our history forever. And tomorrow as we are sitting in the classroom and the child asks me why we celebrate this day Partriots Day I will tell that child that we celebrate for brave people who died trying to resuce other people from danger. I will tell them about the brave story of lives changed and people saved. Until Next Time!

Living in the moment of Happiness....

So this evening I got back from weekend long stay at my college alma mata Gardner - Webb. I went back because of best friends Tara was graduating with her associates degree in Nursing which is what you have to have to become a nurse...this is a big deal!!! This is the first graduation for her she will graduate next year again with her bachelors. This first graduation is a big deal...I was throughly happy for and her roomate Kaleigh whom I also know very well and graduated with same thing.  This is them here in the picture:

Kaleigh and Tara

As I sat there in Graduation this morning I couldn't help but be happy for the two of them along with others that I knew in the Graduating class of 2012. I also thought about how happy everyone was in this setting how families were happy to see there child now becoming an adult, friends happy to see their friends graduating along with being happy for them with all they had achieved. I like others in the audience were proud and happy for my friend. In talking to her about someother things as well I was glas to see her happy in that aspect of her life. But to me it's really more than that. I realized this was me two years ago happy to be graduating and getting my degree, and proud of what I had acomplished. But it's not just about being sentiemental for me...the title up top "Living in the moment of Happiness"...just what does it mean?

I think that moment of happiness isn't really a moment its more like a life time of them! Like seeing my friends happy in whatever they do whether that be graduating, life, working, finding that one special person to love, watching them be loved. Or like seeing my family happy, healthy, and treasuring those wonderful moments like watching my cousin's daughter grow, my brother getting engaged, spending time with them and laughing. I think we can also find those moments of happiness in ourselves as well. For me those moments of happiness come in all different shapes and forms anything from graduating college two years ago, to making memories with my friends, learning from life the lessons to grow up. I think we all have those moments and though I know life is not sunshine and lolly pops all the time sometimes is good to find those happiness moments when things don't seem so....

we all need to find those moments...untill next time!

Just a little sentimental lately...

LISTEN TO THIS FIRST

 So the video I posted with this is one of my new favorite songs on the radio right now. I love country music it seems to always resonate with things going in my life. This song in particular takes me back to the summer before my senior year when life was still pretty care free. This song takes me back to that summer of hanging out with my group of friends who at that point and time consisted of six of us. That six includes my two best friends Jennifer Shull, Jennifer Bigelow, along with the guys who hung out with us Cody, Matt, and Andrew. We were all connected then and still are now because our parents all attend the same church but that's another story for another time. We loved hanging out we would go bowling, play games, go to movies, cookouts, and other fun things. It reminds of all those memories that we made during that time in our lives. I get a little sentimential with this because that takes me back to a time when I was so care free and not worried about anything that the future had to hold. We are now all adults we have jobs, and responsibiles, and we've even added to the group with marriages, we have houses and car payments, bills...we've become adults, but still friends just like back then. Someitmes I get sentamential for that time when we were so care free, but I also woudn't trade that experince that I gained after that summer for the world. To end this post I am going to quote some lyrics from the song until next time...

"Funny how a melody sounds like a memory
Like the soundtrack to a July Saturday night"

First Post on the New Blog...

So what to say with this post.....
I am not really sure...normally my thoughts are running wild but tonight they are pretty calm...I guess I will talk about life lately...
I turned 25 this year...hard to believe I have five years less till I'm 30. That seems crazy to me, but I feel more secure in my what I like to call "ADULTHOOD". I know that sounds crazy but its just truth. I am more comfortable with who I am along with my body and what I think...on to other things though.
Life has been changing alot for me lately...I had a job but recently lost it. You don't realize how much time a job takes up till you don't have one. I dealt with that loss with tears, laugher, and somewhat sadness. Yes it wasn't my dream job but that didn't mean I wanted to lose it. The hardest thing I find now that I'm 25 is where I fit in. I thought I knew after I had my job and was living my life but with the loss of my job I find myself wondering where I fit in my own life. Not that I think a job is life or death its not.  There are way more important things in this life than that it's just that looming questions "where do I fit?" I am looking for a job currently if anyone knows of any...and in the mean time trying to find where I fit. So that's an update on my life right now and the end of my first post on the new blog. Untill next time....